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And as if to prove a point up pops charlie sheen with a perfect example of someone using their mania to get by.That is very similar to getting lost in your head over fantasy rather than reality.Cocain is psychologically addictive but not physically.I can't imagine not feeling nauseated hearing him describe partying but I kinda understand how he got lost in the illusion of things.Having lots of fun comes to an end as a natural matter of course.If you want to maximize it you look forward to quite sobering times in my book.Meaning gets lost if you fix it so you don't feel emptyness ever or think your not.It goes to show what happens when the wrong person has too much money because that's a ridiculously expensive party.I am eternally thankfull I never fell in with that type of situation although Its been in front of me enough for me to realize the waste of it mostly because its very selfish.I knew countless people that accidentally fell in to situations where their pay was an ounce once per weak and thats what they did for a long time untill they forced themselves to stop.If you watch a film on how they make it vrs the traditional use of the leaf its plain to see how wrong it is to make.That's a feeling I guess but If I could I would make the refined form of it go away forever because I don't think the human race needs that.Perhaps the leaf itself has medicinal value.A lot of people hold that anything in moderation is ok but the proof is in managing difficult situations in life and going through them without making yourself blotto.If that were so then people would take thorazine.A good patient who is prescribed benzo'z won't reach for them all the time and a good patient takes all the treatment not just medication.That means taking what is prescribed in conjunction with serious therapy with someone.Lots of people are prescribed saboxone for ocd in very small amounts and are free of addictive behavior but not by the medication alone.There are plenty of innocuous substances including food that are great head changers and as long as one doesn't confuse boredom with an undue amount of pain what is wrong? Because at least at that point we all share lots of feelings as human beings which means not being alone.In fact feeling troubled can open doors of union with other people that are invaluable.I'm sure charlie sheen will be a poster boy for sobriety in six years.He certainly has provided a model example of a manic person and in the future I won't be suprised to hear people refer to others as being "all charlie sheened out".