My flowz fuppkd up

That couldn't be right but I was simultaneously living the reality of it in front of me while writing.Its tricky to right about personal issues in relationships if you involve everything around you and within you with out discretion.I highly don't advise it.Still, I always thought I could stop being embarrassed all the time by facing it which just made it easier to accept and so I became more indiscreet, desultory and boring.All along I was considering a different narrative.I was so embarrassed by my anger and still feel embarrassed now .Weired things embarrass me and my song is all that.Its not an embarrassing song per say but its embarrassing to me. I wanted to split last autumn but it was a good thing I didn't because embarrassment is mostly the reason why.I knew I would be increasingly embarrassed until I turned in to a pretzel. A bad joke will always be that unfortunately no matter how one tries to learn from it or the experience or paint a rosy picture of life. I have almost nothing to write at the moment ...... finally .....with words like this............