A little slice of me

I have inadvertently had to through the baby out with the bathwater but as is usually the case, not without mitigating circumstances.Its best for me not to become befuddled by input that is beyond my ability to understand or contextualize.I wonder if I am not alone in feeling this way about communicating on line.Any slice of someone can be taken out of context by another's immediate prejudices and circumstances and I mean all kinds of slices.Since its a slice, pizza comes to mind, followed by ' Strangers in a Strange Land ' and other ideas about "soul eating". I know it sounds very sinister along with " human Commerce" and being " Bio-Sexual".That's a notion I realized other people must already realize when I realized it.Biological sexuality based on feeling sexual for any reason except some obvious ones like necrophilia etc etc.Sexual proclivity is highly over rated as a point of reference in understanding the " Bio-Sexual".The "bio-Sexual" will sometimes confess they are just "slutty",and equal- oportunavorish in what they do but as life goes on it becomes obvious that this is not exactly true.Sort of a nice way of saying that sexually compulsive behavior becomes understood within ones self(whatever is truly being expressed) as a matter of course.The thought that one would be with their partner no matter what their gender is, is not immediately appreciated easily by all but its a nice one.The Idea is that you love the soul of the person so much that you feel honestly you would want to share significant parts of your life with them.People feel this way at all kinds of ages and as the result of all kinds of reasons that tore down perceived differences we believed in.I am very happy when I see someone living beyond these stultifying notions.Part of contentment is the ability to find the admiration and inspiration within conflicting emotions.The admiration and inspiration is an elemental part of contentment. It sometimes comes through a faulty belief from highlighting everything negative in conflicting feelings.They seem more real than the temporarily obscured valuable feelings mixed up in the circumstance." Human Commerce" is right out.The question I wonder about is how do people manage to strike a balance with one another without feeling vaporized by feeling vampired.Feeling drained by people and situations is part of life but strictly only to a point.Without clear boundaries this can be a serious cause for psychotherapy and I have availed myself of this privilege for this reason.Often one thing has nothing to do with another and its hard for me to see that.I think it must be hard for everyone sometimes.It seems like a little thing to one person to do or say something but INADVERTENTLY it is taken vastly changed by another in a twisted way which has nothing to do with person A but now it gets worse because person A responds to person B based on the "strange" reaction of person B,assumes its so, and so on and so forth.Some have a natural knack for completely fucking up what their trying to say.I do it lots.for example this is a light one......I was waiting for my friends to wake up and get out of bed and we were sharing the room. So she was getting up and he started getting out of bed and I said " oh , uh, dude....do you have anything I can put in My mouth?" I thought he had some grapes or an orange or a cough drop.His response was " You know Ralph, I thought you were smarter and more worldly than saying something like that".If he had handed me a stick of gum and said nothing it wouldn't have occurred to me.Well anyway this has been a slice of me but I doubt words compare to actually tasting me or anyone else to the degree is necessary to know their flavor.