Coughing it up continued

Realizing people are animals is one of my favorite things.I first bought plants then graduated to a cat then it was on to humans and what have you.I feel like a perfect chimpanzee most of the time.Its hard for a chimp in new york.I know I have a twin in this world from my viewpoint but that's between me and a silent yet potently portending universe.I truly believe in the correctness of sincerity and attention to detail that is an emblem of someone's love, evidently, but in a way that might not be apparent.I don't believe some things in this world can happen any way but the best way.The truth doesn't nag a person in general or cause them confusion so freedom of action becomes imperiled.Freedom to live life with out doubt and to do the simple things in front of oneself as if they were the most important thing in the world.I have loved many dour faced angry people in my life because they very loving and truly sincere in their inimitable way.They were never only dour and angry it seemed to me.............I'm digressing from my digression.I'm always amazed how people who have completely different lives arrive at the same places.Its very normal for me to admire parts of myself that come out much better in others.I do not feel decreased.My arms cry out to embrace the one that seems to need it most?That always consumed and superseded much in my life.A good thing about esoteric study is that if it has or had any value it conforms itself to your lifestyle in an available way.I had not realized the extent of seeing oneself in another as " better " is overwhelming.Its similar to the accident of very similar mentalities as a result of shocks and trauma but its not.The later can cause people not to be able to stand in the room with someone else.In this case its more like seeing who you are if you didn't go through experiences in your life that changed your destiny like that.Its not truly like that because what I see is actually nothing to do with happenstance at all` or the vicissitudes of life.I see myself so hard that it melts my heart in an incredible way while the whole picture causes a predictable response I guess.I have not ever imagined that my mind,emotions,psychology and Body would exist in accord and that's independent from desiring someone to be and act and speak as I wish them to.I think the subject of how people relate and feel about each other is a sloppy one.That's life....that's art.........Out of the slop come the very best flowers around the world over.Lotus flowers come to mind in India........................................................