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The message that drove home round all the bases of my heart was how much someone could be themselves and have fun. The Dead were all about that. This confused me a little because being myself was a lot more than wearing a black bvd with a pocket.To hear my voice calling me from a distance in a divinely idealized form is an ecstatic experience.I needed to hear a call to be myself completely.and actually the words I wrote about behavior change apply to actualizing self expression just as much as travel etc.I am living art every moment of my life right now.I am standing on the back of a charging wild tiger springing in leaps across the river.The tiger sometimes likes my spirit,sometimes the tigar wants to bite me cuz.......well tiger's do that,the tiger doesn't need to care if I fall off while I have NO CHOICE BUT TO HOLD ON SOMEHOW.I could also thoughtlessly fuck up and piss off the tiger which makes the naturalness necessary to succeed more difficult.Success at just not falling off is the metaphor.That means believing in yourself every day.I wonder if another person can c parts of themselves that they want to express but have trouble because of the type of confusion I had with being those parts of myself with other parts that took me away from the pure expression.I think I have figured it out and also how to get back to it without feeling your putting tooth paste back in the tube.............................................