100 PROOF PUDDING or Volkswagen jelly bean muesli cough drop

You could poor Bicardi all over cake and get a 100 proof rum pudding sort of.Rum is never liberating to me no matter how much cola and and the words Cuba lebere'(spell check) are put together.I definitely have an oral fixation this evening which writing could sooth.Bur frankly I can barely sit on how pissed off I am.The kind of pissed off that feels like you just went in your pants and your just sitting there with it because there's nothing you can do.I think I'm as good at that as I care to be at this point.......................................Throw fruit at me.Whenever I write something for real it will be a novel in the first person.I don't want to write about my life directly so there are many possibilities of completely changing time place and circumstances in to just about anything completely different.The worst effects of a relationship on ones life can be found in the language that's used in small matters.I think its overstated to judge people on that because its part of a complicated story of need ,filling need and how it plays out and makes life all messed up.I don't think judging someone because they snatch something is a rule to live by.Its easy to see how people will lie to themselves and lie to each other to keep a relationship going.It could also turn in to a nightmarish old age...........................Its often better to not like someone when you first meet them, I suspect, but that becomes complicated with sexual attraction(which can make it worth not not liking them if you find what you really don't like is coming mostly from oneself,you,people,them,us bla bla bla.I want to write the first book that puts sections in to one sentence that reads .........' Description,Fill in this part yourself' , or "description of the Himalayas.......please imagine.......'
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