Neil Young - Dance Dance Dance

I understand why you right that and feel that.I accept it and I will never be a sneeze of a thought to you.Remember, the only practical thing thats intersting about me is why i am so angry.This is what you c and know.It is true for you and I accept it although I wished for something else.I remember exactly when I started to act oddly to myself and I am sur the errant mouthy comments sealed it 4 you.I accept what I did and move on.that man is long gone in part but i have learned a lot about people.I could paste a diagnosis of severe add and it would be obvious as to why I think some hings.I never did because I don't want to perpetuate that in myself of others any more.I cared enough not to ever mention lots of things its better for people at other points in there lives not to hear.I feel guilty that I don't feel bad that as you said " the only thing interesting about you is why your so angry".Well its not because I was rapped when I was young I guess.I hate excuses but they can explain trauma.Hate me for this whover reads this.I feel love and a little agitation but i am experienced so badly by some.I think soon you'll get over it.I will not exist to you unless something makes it different ITS NOT WHAT I THINK IT IS AND ITS NOT WHAT YOU THINK.I speak for me....I made a scarry mistake and the worst accessory to that is that I write in an odd tone that most people find offensively unlike me.I don't think you beleive me or that you care but I would be a hateful freightened person to determine what someone thinks about me negatively all in the service of a self righteous sense of being right..As I became very shocked as things transpired in communicating with a host of annonymous peole I was confused by what I felt and the little experience I had with on line culture.Thats my regret.... that I shut down rather than think of an effective way to adapt.Proud people say that other people hate them for often more so I am inconsequential to them.I am speeking for what I did not at all regarding someone elde.I think you are well suited to not ever concern yourself with anything like this in human affairs.I never wanted to say much for fear of causing someone to losete chance to find out for themselves.I have a horrible photographic memory.Anything ever in the news about people at one time in my life stays there.Its a waste because its so meaningless.I won't judge except when I'm in pain over a communication with someone.Its very bad then and I sound angry.If I had some bread I would pay for a DICK to go all up in to my personal life just to prove that whomever wrote that does not know me.I still feel good about them 4 reasons that defy logic.How could I know who rights this or that?Here's how I love........I can love myself and take your vociferous rejection of me.I couldn't go to a club where they don't want jews and I couldn'tbe such a drag knowingly when all someone finds interesting is why I'm mad for whatever reason".I can live with that.I have to love your very special humanity.....you in fucking particular......the whole loss has been a fine learning experience and as you c..... and as I am sure you would want.....I am impervious to times when your mean........All this i do because i find you to be very special for a lot of reasons.I could never overcome the mistrust.As I am not wholly sure who wrote this..... did you not have the dick do his homework.Insist your right , rationalize and through it away.What bothers me is not being known by you and also being as militant as I will always be about being independant.Imagine.....the world we live in dictates that people date who make the same money.That called abject slavery but not more than a whisper. I had to say I realize the disdain you feel .I feel as good as any human but I am not mixing up with every motive for me but the real one and that is embodied in my voice,my eyes,my walk, my breath etc.I don't slam doors and I am in love with my patiance which has nothing to do with waiting or wanting.I will never have less than respect and understanding towards you. P>S I freak out a lil but that should now decrease. I can't keep writing wontonely mean and arrogant though because it makes sense for at least one reader its worth it.I could write so much I have thought and observed but my good heartedness in repaid with something unworthy of my feelings. I have planned to keep on writing minding my bussiness and if its good for someone to read great.thats fine.are you sure I desrve to be shut off like that.Did I ever indicate avaritiosness????????you don't accuse them of gold digging.Someday I will understand but I havn'ta clue about you.I think few men could have less to offer you.I also feel that that is the case in this situation and i would have preffered a human connection due to highly personal mental issue but I know how many great people are in the world.I will always count you as one.You have original brilliance ......take care of it.