The flash card section

Its interesting that when I feel sharply of two minds about someone there is often true salvation.This situation seems like it can't be created so when it happens I try to remember that that feeling makes it possible to change the way one feels in a solid reliable way.If I feel just anger then I conclude the subject in my mind while and in my actions.If I feel all involved and overtly loving I suspect I may be angry etc and am covering it up out of a sense of survival.Some learn well from getting bruised a bit from being playfull and free but that is often a good way to learn about oneself on ones own terms.I do not think better or worse has much to do with this but "feeling better " often does.Take writing this blog for example.I have learned so much about people and myself from learning to get past the emmiediate gratification of writing whatever without much consideration of how it comes accross to others.Same goes for speeking.It kinda sorta never dawned on me that I could express ideas when I am feeling out of sorts and have the feelings I would like to escape by writing turn out screaming in the communication.For the most part these words are for someone going through life somewhat similarly to the experiences I have.Thats what matters to me as well as a curiousity about people and all I do not understand about them to a reasonable extent.Its a good thing to care enough to recognize the value of just being oneself and feeling content without the expense of putting someone else down...........its lunchtime.......