word meaning and sentence structure-building blocks to a cogent post or you get what i got!!!!

One thing I noticed about writing is that one can forget to write a concluding point because of forgetting the need to slow down and remember the reader.I wonder if perhaps people get more lax when they assume no one cares anyway.I think the same goes for our expression of anger as it occludes the importance of respecting another. A note on my sadness comment.Sad is used to describe lots of upsetting experiences.Seeing starving people often who don't have much to eat could be sad.Also an abandoned baby crying is sad.In that case one springs to action out of there sadness.Its sometimes a motivator too.Ennui is another one.No matter what ,in serios loss "sadness"is likely to be more apparant in the witnesses to the families grief.Any time one chooses a happy thought when in these funks the quicker they will be a memory.Gentleness with oneself and not having unreasonably high expectations can ease useless pressure we put on ourselves.On another subject,I am increasingly appreciative of growing up around the people I did (in my family) that made me very seasoned in taking vituperation as a sign of frustration.I understand,sympathize and agree with the sentiments of the person who so seriously wishes me ill from the depths of their souls.......I just know There has bee a disconnect here because I know my heart and everyone who reads me knows I sometimes write without completing my thoughts and asleep to the ramifications or rushing.This is very insignificant and I'm not complaining.I hope and pray that they,one day, do not find themselves being condemned and judged in the same way.I do not wish another human being to ever go through the weired ass crap that goes on inside me at times(more and more rare with less staying power).When I get those things I say "I just want to know no one else will ever have to feel this.A selfish and grandiose thing to say but my heart is there.All in all I realize I ain't that crazy!And I will no longer harbor any enmity towards others so I feel the same regarding my ckockamammy ideas about esoteric love and connections of support for people far away and unknown.I was right and my feelings were not irrational.My feelings might have been sometimes!My sentiments towards whomever is involved in my life or mantioned here have remained even.Expectations of other people beyond a reasonable one in a person is a major hardship so I can see the wisdom of loving without expectation in part because its efficient and it feels good to know one can develope a degree of steady love towards someone regardless of how vociferous they are in explicating through action itself that they feel the utmost derision and disgust for me.It only bothers me if someone doesn't like me for an aspect of my character is really there to be hated.If one truely knows the accusations are a result of one person being unable to c another clearly then why would one feel bad?