seems like a useless well to me.....

That would be this here blog to which I refer.You know part of saying whatever claptrap that comes to my mind has resulted in my writing on topics in a most unreliable manner.Sometimes it was just stupidity and other times it was laziness and a result of hard won confidence inadvertently abused.It took a long time to feel a sense of intrinsic belonging.I think this blog is like a useless dried up well that not only does no one read but I'm here with my broken bucket trying to get some water in.Oddly for sure however,if I write something remotely negative or embarssing or contrary to the opinion of certain people I notice these funny coincidences that seem to respond to these comments.I grew up around people that found it indispensable to judge others based on where they were born,what type of education etc.I found this distasteful although I was pronr towards being judgmental in that manner until I realized how stultifying it was towards my desire to see people in an egalitarian spirit.I have to laugh when I think How many times I defended artists Who I did genuinely feel deserved much more then a knee jerk "oh that's garbage".I peoved it to because I would play the material by some musical performance artists as I enjoyed surprising the listener when,after being told what a wonderful "spiritual" message the song contained and then telling them who wrote it.I was angry that people who were supposedly teaching modes of awareness that free people from thoughtless status quo would say"there may be people who sport High heals,makeup and/or a business suit who are enlightened but Ive never seen them".what a bunch of horse manure.All manner of people are enlightened in addition to which we human's come in different styles.Here I mean to say that this is a very ignorant thing to suppose.Also,some people are "yogi" or "seeker" style while others are What I call "master' style.They are secure in their sense of completness and even though they may watch orielly and vot republican,it is not uncommon to hear them say very profound comments that may take a vegetarian boooodist a long time to know.All this crap I write to say,if there is someone reading this I think you will agree that while I leave mounds of opportunities for others to malign me and dismiss me,for sure can we not at least agree that I write Here and elswher rather thoughtless and pointless comments that have probably ruined any chances if ever they existed for someone to take me seriously or consider me for any useful purpose.For this reason I hope I will be trusted when I say Am I A good example of what not to write.I am fairly certain that I was wrong to write comments in my own name.Please,remain incredulous all you want,but if I thought I was being assertively malicious why on earth would I use my name?I often tried to make a point very badly and I forget how important it is to qualify what one wishes to communicate.gotta go up the street 2 b continued I love people I know it bothers some folks oh well, if someone is reading this I hope you feel unfettered empathetic joy signed ralph usdan