Caffein as a medical alternative:One persons experience

I awoke at 6:15 this morning "sans" alarm clock.I gave myself two 75 mg caffeine or whatever that brand specifies.I used my natural physical chemical reaction to a rather weak co mixture with that which releases cannabonoid as a stimulant for the other mental faculties caffeine misses.At 8:30 I took another tab of caffeine with one low dose clonnapin.I just now took my final dose of caffeine and final clonnapin for the day (unlike vallium,clonnapin stays in the body a long time while it is debilitating to take over a long time in way vallium is not.I have been given as much vallium as i wanted (i did not) since 1977.I feel that carefully administered tramadol would have been best as it seems to correct thought disorders most efficiently with a slight yet still argued over addictive quality.Caffeine is key to forgoing the taking of harder " pharmies" like ADDERAL for example which I can only take if someone administers it daily with no exceptions.I am not proud of this.This mixture is also an alternative to those using hard opiates as a stimulant to get in to something other than the phocus on obsessive and compulsive thoughts and feelings.THIS IS A DISCLAIMER,THIS IS NOT VALID MEDICAL ADVICE.THIS IS MERELY MY EXPERIENCE.