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"when the rain comes it don't fall on one man's house"..........And that is a very wonderful thing because that means you never have to feel angry or hurt by anyone else on the planet if you do not wish to.It is better to discover that you like feeling miserable if you do because by admitting it and becoming aware of it one is firmly free from it.I believe there is no road to freedom because freedom is the way.Same 4 complete enlightenment.The reason I express My quirckey humanity and involve it is because I was instructed by my teachers to go out in to the world and forget all I had learned in a long formal training process on the darma.I have all the gist for the mill I will ever need now as I go back to my treasure.I enjoy stream entering and owe myself many hours of it.I am firmly rooted in the knowledge that adeptness in spiritual practice can never be an identity to use against babelonianism.I never use that term because it gives a spark of life to something so putrid and awful..........The human bondage inherent in that life is why I prefer to live beyond the frey within.Most importantly the darma means I alwayse belong wherever I am and that I belong here on earth.In fact I am deeply loved by nature and I receive an inordinantly lrger amount of love from other people than most people.I owe myself thousands of happy days that I have cleverly banked in ways no other could understand.I am glad I have spent these last years exactly as I have.I am ecstatic that every event in my life went off exactly as it has.Every event that happened was clearly supposed to and that is just DUCKY to me.When you live close to death every day you become more open to possibilities of freedom.In the Occult world it is said that those with the ability to know the unseen and future ,they were either born with this gift or have lost many close to them and so obtained it.People who are psychic always know each other naturally just as thieves need no introduction.That is my belief.

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my creepy crawler step mom(et al) through my face book account abounds.Meanwhile my zoom recorder turned out to be broken so all that blah blah was 4 nothing.I felt very proud of this recording I made and I am sure that if 4 people got up in front of 70k and played it live in the same manner it would cause a riot.I was in the process of slowing up my beats 4 a new set of recordings but some of the tones were arrived at in the uncontrived manner I love.The timber of the leed guitar was inadvertantly perfect to the obscure genre or petrie dish that my electric music spawns from.Hard core NO WAVE.NO WAVE eventually produced nirvana and one can hear its influence throughout Rage against the machine.The guitar solo in "renegades of funk" makes a good example.Regardless, I have an inspiration to share.I want to make little outfits for my erect third foot to wear,Like a spicy leather dress and some crazy wiggs,and take fashion pictures! what a great way to gross out my creepy rancid relatives and delight those who I am happy to entertain.just a plane old picture would work just as well I suppose and given my present legion of predicaments am more likely to end up doing.It would make a nice backdrop on my blogger but I guess i would have to change the status.I'm going home anyway and that sometimes goes on for months.This place is thousnds of miles to the street.This dude is like a drill sargeant i guess.His viewpoint of the world seems beyond useless to be almost anti-life but then again that is the prevailing way these days.Expressions of culture are ipso facto.To quote a french aphorism "each donkey must brey in their own pasture",this quote describes something about the current human cultural condition but i am not sure what.The inevitability of over generalizing or seeming to, makes the subject of the present human condition either on a personal level or as commentary,dangerous.What gets left out by accident in making commentary causes problematic results.Just forgeting a few words change the meaning of something to its opposite.I had mentioned previously not succeding in interscting with anyone during the time i have been putting quite a bit of content on line.Many people have interacted with the content the content produced.The last words of the booooooda "be a light unto yourself" have always been the most impressive words of wisdom to me.I had no one to guide me mostly because I made myself that way.I did not wish to be that way but there is a strange possibility of inner dialogue when you learn about yourself in a profound way while in the process of contributing content to the internet.I had to process apects about myself I often refused to look atI think it is probably painfull to watch and contains the smell of death which under normal conditions put all people off entirely.I've learned that with my own soul and i'm glad i did.There is so much I don't write that I used to.Whatever content Is left on the www of mine is absolutely effective by what is not written or not presented in any planned sequence such as the subsequant interaction with the content,I will quote my own song ,"its not the beat but the spaces in betweeen them",to hopefully convey my meaning.Once you have allowed man made economics of your life to affect a natural, free articulation of an uncontrived give and take of life energy in social conditions you have a big problem.Extreme poverty and extreme wealth have this in common.Just because you think something is real does not make it real and that is most important as regards thoughts one just assumes are valid because they conform with concensus thinking around you.This is freedom from being in a human made condition.i have to go do something and cut this off ,mow laytor sorry no time to edit!!!!!

thank you tender mercy....................i do not think you believe me nor giving a second thought to any relevance to your life.

Perhaps one day you might know I am sincere here and now in saying you have shown me something I was too blind to see.You have saved the quality of my life and it makes one sad although very understandable that I can not even prove the truth of my sentiments in one silent gaze.But I will confess.....if in 40 years you realize my appreciation and gratitude of you as a living blessing who saved me from going down the wrong path. I would never have survived my rancor and lack of compassion towards myself.There is one special you and you bring us joy to feel your fresh positive flow.I hope you always remember how special your talents are to heal.I have 2,000,000 acres of yours in my heart if you ever need to claim it but we know how useless it is to the true seeker of unconditional love.Normally we walk in another persons shoes before we judge but perhaps my .The nature of life is much like the story line i have in my head. WANING AND WAXXXXINGGGGGG AND WAD IT ONCE WAS.