eeeeeeeeesh snow and soon going home

Wow! lots of snow and cloudy days.I had forgotten the affect on low pressure on a wood stove which is to push the smoke back down the smoke pipe and smolder the fire after starting it.This is rare however;we all felt a strange ennui supporting the idea that extremes of pressure cause severe changes in mental perception,(perhaps).Once,in the last two weeks, the sun was out until 10:00am and a few moments once or twice.Actually its sot of pale beige/yellowish tinge over grey right now.The birds are busy with the feeders especially the cardinals that amazed the locals when these vicious birds shat on me two days in a row in the middle of the field.This morning the stove was luke warm, which I addressed promptly until it was a good fire and now its nice to be cozy warm in the snow.I am gratified often when I see someone speaking truth to power officially, in our nation.In general I have found that the people who do this are often artists or academics.This includes the art of businesses.Leaving aside what constitutes an artist,my point is,its often musicians who like to explicate their expression in many valid ways, who can be seen and listened to on corporate owned media outlets articulating a more useful,peaceful and universal message.Particularly in programed music,because there are words,the art of song writing becomes very relevant politically,socially,psychologicaly and probably and in my opinion,our spiritual lives.It was through the study of history that led me to the conclusion that the divine speaks through song.Many years ago while listening to Elton John songs(This song) I realized some of his songs could be songs to God.I came to see that great love songs are often that way for some reason.I noticed reality was fully in the weave of popular music and I have two examples.Six months and up to the summer of 2001 one of the top songs spoke of building castles in the sky.An expression of a deep feeling of sadness regarding the inevitability of things or was this song related to coming events somehow? Through December of 1999 a top song on the charts simultaneously with the y2k craze said "push rewind just in time don't tell anybody,were gunna do it again", also "and the worlds a stage and the end is near".So what if the big horror of y2k was that there was no y2k.Bla Bla so I was studying the signs and symbols one finds when fully studying history and discovered a connection between whatever arts were revered and the signs and symbols contained in the art.I realized this often happens to those who allow their subconscious to speak through them.The artist portraying signs and symbols without planning but making divinely natural sense anyway.Some claim subversion in whatever they see in the mass media.My answer to that is as long as people make bigger telescopes the more stuff will seen forever or until the telescope shows the scientist whats contained up her or his butt.Me and jack Ira wrote a short film about scientists that go through this scenario.One of them recognizes the similar pattern between what the astrophysicists see and what the pattern of corn is in their stool after extrusion in the can.The Printing plate on a twenty dollar bill was drawn in the 1920's or something and when asked if the reason when it folds in a certain manner it shows the events of 9/11 was a conspiracy I got so mas I said yes emphatically to the credulous youth.I said that the conspiracy was him and in him and in all of us when we consider the only other possibility is time travel and that ain't the type of question one talks about without sounding or being nuts.We have our freaks credo anyway to wit:There is no place like home ,home is where the heart is and most relevant here "Pay no attention to the (so called)man behind the curtain.For a long time and under no duress I realized the intense experience of the feminine within me.I considered that A female deity might be be better 4 men and also how much I was programmed about sexuality,women and men.I was interested in the culture in the United States of the "undeserved privileged" I had spent five years intensely involved with assortments of awareness and meditation practice.In days of old china people whether future nuns or monks were thrown out of the practice stage of study at 5 years by coincidennce.The same went 4 me so out in to the world I went to practice in all manner of worldly situations most of which I chose because of my deep fear.I lived in many hoods including a crazed trailer park with any accoutrement you could imagine one ought have.I lived on the keys which was pure hood while in key west I rented a room in Bahama village in a very old building formerly a brothel where Hemingway got laid next to a garden now part of a restaurant where he boxed and drank extensively.I recommend Johnson's take out across the street a lot and if you see men sitting along the benches on either side of the street tell Maxie ralph said hello assuming that is still the main cross street in Bahama village.Maxie could well of left the planet but never that spot.I walked around Harlem freaky on several occasions figuring to be the one to do it.I knew this would be the right way to assist the breaking down of barriers.I lived somewhere that has changed a lot but at one time a most notorious block in new york city was hard to find.Accidental 4 me but one night I was lounging in the heat wearing silly daisy dukes when old miss juanita insisted I go to a bank machine 4 her.Locked out of my apartment I prepared to go barefoot and she was vehement that I wear shoes.In this case all I had was cowboy boots which she made me wear.Sometimes I would walk around with a guitar without a case and rocked out.Or going to larks in bed sty from master stylo's party with goo goo zzz then having to subway back to Astoria in punk over the top regalia next day stumbling in my english punk platforms down the Brooklyn street.I always wanted to apologize to that bass player for him not getting his venice tee shirt back which he prized.I can't stand doing that.Segway back through the goo goo zzz with me to the subject of popular musicians speaking truth to power and altering deep symbolic meanings in mass subconscious cultural levels through presentations and musical notes.Here are some examples , Frank Zappa to congress, Madonna on nightline,jerry garcia on major televised interview,recently through interview and presentation, Lady Ga Ga.Rarely are actors encouraged to speak about anything but as a rep 4 their latest film .It is very important to be consistently tactful at any rate regarding social, political or philisophical opinion.By no accident to this subject,in my little world, I have learned this online in a way fitting my disregard of tact or even consideration or other meanings of anything I shared on line with someone else.( perhaps one person or another).Lack of flexibility in knowing I might require more than crass cavalier expressions assuming an attitude that since there is no acknowledgement in my inflexible myopic way of seeing things then it must not be treated as a real individual.All this 4 the worst of reasons namely of the insecure and unexamined kind.I don't believe someone would be that disdainful to me only because they had or had not been lied to about me or manipulated something I did to suit a need to highlight my ineptitudes or weak moments while under stressors.I also can not believe but have seen me do it, that someone would snoop conversation than become angry over it.People will believe a lie if they hear it enough. People are so much more multi dimensional than the how what and why of what they say from moment to moment.I used to hold things back so much I flooded myself out when I started loving myself enough to speak up.I went passed,way passed a realistic laissez-faire attitude.Well, keeping it low key and wishing any eyeballs and the verbs they belong to my desire for your own peace,wellbeing and freedom to b continued ru PS sorry if this doesn't make much sense like the writer of this post!