I just can not resist

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stanisław_Lem Geeee I wonder if that links??????Oh well...either way ,now that the spelling of the Polish author of the book,'Solaris' has been established I feel emboldened to say that in as much as I have been informed he did not like the first filmed version of his book,this 21st century version could only be mystifying to the author of nuanced social criticism written in a variety of ways.I remember all the reviews of the new version of lem's work called it "Tarkovsky's Solaris".Andre Tarkovsky made movies with as little polemics as could be possible to be obvious in a film.Andrey Rublyov,made significantly earlier than the first Solaris ,is as far as I know widely to be considered a "great film".Andrey Rublyov is an artists movie about artists and the concept of art occurring by mystery is explored as an avenue towards a further social reality whereby everyone is considered an artist by dint of ones life itself.Tarkovsky wrote a much better movie in my opinion but his name need go no further.This new television commercial type version falls so far bellow what I thought it must be like I can not imagine what other people saw including some who asked me to spill whatever I knew about it.I always loved the original film and had seen it at a theater many moons ago as part of a triple feature with the now non existant original thx1138 and blade runner all on a giant movie screen.Solaris is obviously composed visually to make those visual choices part of the story.The power of oblique seemingly unconnected images to create a compelling story is certainly part of the reason I was drawn to the film but over years of watching it I realize the abstract visual composition within the film in so many scenes throughout are compelling as they are satisfying to the eye.Initially I had the book and found the movie a little less but it is a close facsimile in my opinion.George Clooney seems to have made a movie that tries to replace the director's inability to direct the film with dialogue invented by putting words to Tarkovsky's visual suggestions.Tarkovsky came from a high ranking apparatchick family and constrained by the Soviet censor, still he does not film scenes with a slightly moving camera to create the "affect" of the cutting edge in artistic expression.I say well done to those who watched this pointless remake with any interest at all as it shows good staying power and the ability to make whats best out of a terrible situation.21st century Solaris has a nice music score but still falls short of the original.It seems obvious when dialogue is used for convenience as it is in these cases in film when I either do not care or become ambivalent about the characters.

I am not single

I have never clicked anything worse then "its complicated" but it is my opinion that someone registered me as single surreptitiously.Kaput,joined the choir eternal, eviscerating, de-evolving.........morphing in a complicated fashion..........these describe my relationship but not my status.There are important passions in life that require a quieting of the lower chakra's so to speak,the result is that in order to go where you want to go one must be true to themselves AND true to ones values however subjective they may appear to others. Generally speaking if your sleeping in someone's bed most of the time(the same bed),then your not single.Now it happens that I am sleeping in my own bed almost every night in my own private big room.That still does not change my relationship status..I uploaded smoky jane my cat on to a dating site but that also does not change my status.I am not single and I have never said I was.More importantly,I'm more apt to fall in love with whats inside a girl and that takes time to find out about.

love through poetry by ralph usdan

With no senses and the smile of a chimp ......I shall more or less continue to speak when spoken to.I have written this poem for years and I know its what I mean.The loss of not being somewhere or being enough for another is a primal one that we must all feel from time to time.How could I not think of wasted words? Would mountains move for you to quell the fire in your soul? would, if only for the sake of like seeing like.When I see the sadness I know they, you hide,your fierce desire so familiar that waves of healing from your light immerse and engulf me,how can I avoid the bittersweet heat of my hijacked heart or the perspiration that washes away my mind by my heart filled from the full moon of your totality possessing me? Would mountains move for me or would it be easier to wait,unaware, on the curbside, in a cafe' corner table,outdoors and hidden,for you to c me for the first time.How could that be wrong which is of its self,without contrivance. http://picasaweb.google.com/ralphusdan/RalphUsdanPaintings20072008#518819022667750521http://docs.googlhttp://docs.google.com/Doc?id=dcjxg98t_3f23xp4hq&hl=ene.com/Doc?id=dcjxg98t_3f23xp4hq&hl=en8ut

A few notions

Regarding the documentary of"dyspeptic" films I wondered at the sentiments of the person or 'bot', that recommended it.I have never been sure how videos get on you tube for my perusal on my start page.As 'Blade runner and Thx1138 are among the top five I wondered if the top five includes the thousands of morose films and theater made by human beings.Perhaps this video was sent as a marker and message that I a dyspeptic as I like these two films.I like them for other reasons than any "morose" quality.Blade runner is a philosophical novel that asks the question "are we different than feeling soulful robots" with a somewhat happy ending while I have only seen the original thx1138 since replaced completely by a depressing digital backdrop.In the original I found it hard to watch but the ending was a great message of truth and beauty in the image of the final scene..Blade runner will be remembered not as a morose film but one so well written and executed,30 years later most cities around the world look and feel the way L.A does in blade runner.Thats my opinion.The degree that other human beings are suffering and in pain is hard to live with and a visit to the hospital might cause someone to rethink their definition of morose and whether this quality is part of human existence and valuable to expose in popular art.Sounds pretty good right.That video raises some interesting questions about art and the human condition.I got to go shake my shit a bit at this party which is every week.Not enough people dancing accept for us freaks.I liked parts of the song choices on both visits but not all my favorite grooves for dancing.Still....glad to have it near by and I wish them a great success.moe to cum

its sleeting out

In the Tao and in Chung-Tzu contains the obscured "religion" to which I practiced for many years.In the course of studying History on my own,my interests in applied philisophicle practice crossed paths with Russian history in the form of Mr.Ouspensky,whom I studied as diligently as i could.Doing things your very afraid to do is part of this.Booodizm iz similla and I did a lot of that.Then I realized There were fearz within beneath any conscious attempt to confront them.I was a perfect statue at the time which was the boring life of a noun.I fooled myself in many ways.Thenceforward I decided to unlearn all the meditation time and retreats and Dharma talks ,getting as tangled and lost in thought as I naturally am capable.At the age of thirty seven I had not experienced or expressed so much that I was very defensive particularly as I was still overprotected by a system that I knew rewarded the "unearned privileged" which accosted an odd sense of "honor" I felt as a "man".I decided to go to fantastical lengths to break all and any false concretion in the underlying belief of everything I took for granted as thought out in order to draw my own conclusion regarding many actions.I invested a lot of time burning down all taboo's I found within.I became what I found to the exact degree it was present." Know Thy Self " was my maxim and I suppose an ongoing way of life whereby a deep commitment with being honest with oneself often requires a long time to realize.I was actually wanting to become a monk!!!! I was that out of touch with what I am which imploded with the reality experienced intensively practicing Vippassanna fallowed by a naive but insipid course of treatment with a highfalutin Neurol-Psychiatrist.All this crap I wrote was just to say Thank You to a universe which has displayed itself to me in a loving form.I am embarrassed to be recognized but I say to the kind person who understands who I am "of the good things in me you see it is your soul that is described".I know accepting love in any and all forms is a big life lesson that continues.If someone appreciates me I am glad,which I gladly confess!,but I do not wish to require any other human being to be and act exactly as they feel when i c fit.I do not wish to lay expectation at another person's door.I would make a selfish friend if I expected another to be other then themselves at any rate.Even if its made up in my head, application of the kind words thus produces a lighter heart.Thanks to the words perceived and accepted as healing I can in turn heal others.Some say efficiency is a hallmark of the divine.

Extemporaneous Gutteral Utterances

How that is a readable understandable phrase I am curious.I know what it means to me but that is as far as I can go.I so the most ass nine building on 23 across from the park.Another square monolith!!!!!! HOW??? It is my opinion that the perfect shape of that tall thin new building would have at least included curves.I can not believe that The bauh-house school of human city dwelling is still afflicting us.Still a site to see coming down fifth from 34th to 23rd as one takes in the many different styles from the corner of 33rd for example.I was sent this very sad song about the essence of the belief that every person is an island.I am very curious about the person who wrote the song,and if of what I have seen in this world is so, then one day between now and the last the writer will take them back.It is still anyone's right to completely insist that whomever they please is dead,or gone.More later by by